Something I expect in life is that unexpected things happen all the time. This isn’t an indication that anything big has happened lately, but the most recent unexpected thing is that I need to find a new therapist (scream at insurance for ruining another good thing). This is nothing new – in fact, the last 11 months is the greatest achievement I’ve had with a therapist in the 10 years I’ve been in therapy – but it’s another adjustment in my mental health journey. That’s how I feel right now.
One of the ways I fight depression and anxiety is by creating routines. As I wrote earlier, I don’t always have a particular routine and it’s not as regulated as you might think. Rather, my routine is to have a list of activities, chores, errands, and things on my to-do list that will help me on my mental health journey. When I’m stuck and don’t know what to do (which is a slippery penchant for fear), I ponder this list. Then I find something I can do that will help me manage my mental health in the best possible way.
Therapy was one of those things. Once a week (and then once every other week when it got a little overwhelming) I had time to look forward to being 100 percent focused on my mental health. A time when I could think critically, speak without fear of judgment, and do my best to learn about my relationship with my mental illness. The biggest benefit here, of course, is the therapy itself, but as my therapy plan became more consistent, I knew I could look forward to some mental health time, and I embraced that feeling.
Therapy is a big part of my routine and the way I manage my mental health. But for now it won’t be. I know it will be part of my routine again (the search for a therapist is well known) but for now I am focusing on adjusting to this change to make sure I move forward.
And when I say go forward, I mean just that. I don’t want to keep going, sprinting forward, or pulling through. i just want to Keep moving. My journey with mental health means that my depression and anxiety leave me stagnant at times. That may be fine with others, but I know that standing still can have a serious impact on my well-being.
So I created a new goal here. I have some adjustments to make, but my biggest goal right now is to advance my mental health journey in the healthiest possible way – whatever that looks like. Wish me luck!
How can you adjust to disturbances in your routines and how do you best deal with them? I would love to hear from you in the comments section!